http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com A Teens Story of Surviving Cancer Fri, 14 Sep 2007 22:39:04 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.com/ http://s2.wp.com/i/buttonw-com.png http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/14/last-year-and-my-love-life/ http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/14/last-year-and-my-love-life/#comments Fri, 14 Sep 2007 22:39:04 +0000 sopravvivere http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/14/last-year-and-my-love-life/ ]]> ALRIGHT SO I KNOW THIS WHOLE BLOG IS BASICALLY ABOUT THINGS THAT ANNOY ME, BUT I’VE HIT A BIG TIME ANNOYING AND CONFUSING THING!!!!
Last year at the start of school, I was taking creative writing. Now it wasn’t really all that interesting, except for this really cute guy in my class! His name was Dominic, or is for that matter, and he was the kind of guy who ever girl usually gets a crush on. He’s adorable, kind, artistic, sweet, hot and a hell of a lot more.
Anyways I had a crush on him…. A BIG CRUSH!!! But I never thought he’d like me. I mean I’m just not what I think he’d like, and it just didn’t seem realistic. Well he was always staring at me, but I kind of thought he was always staring at me because he thought I was a freak. I mean why wouldn’t he? I could barely ever take my eyes off of him!
Well he ended up switching out of our school and on the last day before he left I decided to talk to him for the first time. It wasn’t really that exciting, except that we introduced ourselves and he wouldn’t really look at me, but I didn’t realize why, until now!
So I was sitting in my creative writing class this year and this girl Shannon asked me if I’d ever taken the class before. So I said that I had and she asked me if I knew who Dominic was. I had forgotten at first, but then I remembered. She then told me that he had liked me last year!!! He thought I was really pretty and other stuff.
A HOT, NICE, ARTISTIC GUY THOUGHT I WAS PRETTY AT THE SAME TIME I LIKED HIM AND HE HAD TO FUCKING MOVE!!!!!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW PISSED I AM???? I MEAN COME ON!!!!!!!
I know in the end it wouldn’t have worked out because I would have gotten cancer, and would have dumped him so he didn’t have to go through all that and I would have gone bald which he probably wouldn’t find attractive, BUT COME ON!!!
JEEZE!!!!!!!!!!!
Well some of my anger has subsided now so I’ll come down now.
But jeeze! Sometimes life is not fair!!!

]]> http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/14/last-year-and-my-love-life/feed/ 1 sopravvivere http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/friends/ http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/friends/#comments Thu, 13 Sep 2007 16:07:05 +0000 sopravvivere http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/friends/ ]]> I know it sounds awful to put friends under the category of annoying me, but its true. Have you ever noticed how some friends can be just SO ANNOYING? Especially when you’re a girl. Guys have it so easy. If they’re pissed at each other, all they have do is beat each other up, or eat disgusting things, or just do something lame and then they’re fine. Girsl well girls stay mad at each other forever, gossip to other people, and then when you try to apologize to one, you know they really don’t want to forgive you. ITS SO ANNOYING!!!!!!!!
I think right now my friend is mad at me because I’m making some new friends! SHOOT ME! I’ve only been a loser for like my whole life, its kind of nice to have some friends.
Anyways I have to eat breakfast now. Its a day at the hospitals for check-ups! yippe!!! NOT!
Alright well KT out!

]]> http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/friends/feed/ 0 sopravvivere http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/crushing/ http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/crushing/#comments Thu, 13 Sep 2007 06:55:35 +0000 sopravvivere http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/crushing/ ]]> I’ve had embarrassing things happen to me.
I mean I am the queen of embarrassing things, but this hits an all time embarrassing thing for me.
Today I was at my friends house, which I haven’t been to for a very long time and her brother was there. I haven’t seen her brother for two years and the last time I saw him he was a scrawny little grade eight who was well, dorky.
So today when I saw him, I wasn’t expecting a cute, sweet, tall, funny, guy who I found myself getting a crush on.
I nearly fainted when I found myself getting attracted to him. I mean I’m in grade twelve! There’s no way I could ever have a crush on my friends kid brother, but for two seconds….. I DID!!!
I mean its not like he noticed. I’m bald. I don’t think I’m exactly what a grade ten boy, or any boy wants right now, but still….
How embarrassing!!!!!
Crushing on a kid.
I’m a cougar!

]]> http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/crushing/feed/ 0 sopravvivere http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/teachers-and-why-they-suck/ http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/teachers-and-why-they-suck/#comments Thu, 13 Sep 2007 06:19:08 +0000 sopravvivere http://sopravvivere.wordpress.com/2007/09/13/teachers-and-why-they-suck/ ]]> I’m in grade 12 this year, but I’m taking an English 11 class. The reason is because I missed that class last year once I was diagnosed. The chemotherapy was too intense for me to keep going on in the class.
Before I was diagnosed though, I had been reading Lord of the Flies. Actually that was the book I was reading the day I was diagnosed. Its a disgusting book. I say that the author was deeply disturbed and whoever decided that it was a good book for students to read, is even more disturbed and troubled.
Well I don’t know if any of you have ever heard of this before or not, but when something traumatic like cancer happens to a person, things that they happened to be reading or listening to at the time can in the future remind them of these times. Well just like a lot of you, I had only ever heard of it happening, but I had never expierienced it myself- Until yesterday.
I was sitting in class staring off into space when my English teacher started handing out the Lord of the Flies books. I could feel the nausea and this cloudy almost weight go over me, and all of a sudden I was rushed back into all the memories. I could see my mom’s pale face when they told me I had cancer. I could see my dad trying not to cry. I could feel the pain of my surgeries and the violent chemo puking. I all of a sudden remembered every conversation I had had with every one of the kids who I was friends with who recently died. And the next thing I knew I was crying and asking the teacher if I could leave the room. She wouldn’t let me so I finally just got up and walked out.
I didn’t go back for about a half n’ hour. It took that long to get some control over myself. When I did go back, she was pissed. And when I tried to explain to her why I had left, that’s when she accused me of lying and saying how cancer shouldn’t affect me that much.
I personally think that you have to be completely nieve, ignorant, and stupid not to see how cancer could affect a seventeen year old high school student.
I’VE SEEN CHILDREN DIE AND ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS IS DYING OF TERMINAL CANCER RIGHT NOW! I ALMOST DIED MYSELF!!! HOW THE HELL DOES THAT NOT AFFECT ME????
On Friday, I’m going to try to get out of that class. Its a stupid class. Mainly because English is one of my strong suits and well the other reason is, I can’t stand the teacher.
So here’s to hoping.
Also, any teacher who ever says cancer isn’t important, I’M GETTING YOU FIRED!!!
That’s my goal.

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